Monday, March 30, 2009
I am looking forward to next weekend and dreading it at the same time. I love General Conference and have been looking forward to it since Cosette passed away. I am hoping to time Ally's nap right, so that we can watch a whole session and then have my brothers watch her for the afternoon ones (they'd normally be sleeping through it, so they might as well do something useful). One of my sisters had a dream that Bensons birthday was/is April 5, so I am kinda hoping that is true, we'll see. I am dreading Sunday for the fact that it will be 4 months since Cosette left us and it's been on my mind a lot lately. I think just as my due date gets closer and my emotions are right at the surface, it just brings up lots of feelings. I love talking about my little angel. My hope is that when I talk about her it helps me forget less. It helps me work through my emotions and feelings I have about what happened. I miss Cosette so much and today I just can't help but wonder why she had to leave us so early. I accept that it was her time to go back to Heavenly Father, but I don't feel like I had enough time with her. I guess this is true for any person that passes away, but more so for a child. You/I are/am always going to feel like there wasn't enough time. I am just so thankful for those 15 months we had with her and the knowledge that I will see her again. I will get to raise her starting at the age she was when she left us. I just wish that I was raising her here with her siblings. I had such hopes and dreams for Ally and Cosette, growing up so close in age. Knowing that Ally gets to grow up without her sister and not really remembering and knowing Cosette, crushes me.
Okay, on to a happier note....
For those of you that have had children, did you try anything special that worked for you when it came to inducing labor? I am not wanting to do the castrol oil or herbs, but am up for foods. I've heard pineapple and watermelon help, has anyone else heard this? I am just getting tired of so many bathroom breaks (at least one an hour during the day and every other hour at night) and the constant back pain. I'm not trying to complain, but these 2 things are just starting to wear me down. Starting on Wednesday I am going to start doing everything I can to get this little guy out. Ally and I pulled the wii fit out on Saturday and did hula hoop, step aerobics, and did a run 3 times. For some reason he still wanted to stay put, we'll see how he feels after I do this every day this week.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Last night I went and got what I hope was my last massage for this pregnancy (from a professional, you're not off the hook yet Matt!). It was so nice and relaxing. If you ask Matt I could honestly be massaged all day and it still wouldn't seem like enough. I love back rubs, massages, getting my back scratched and most of all a scalp massage. Oh the scalp massage is super nice. One of my sisters use to make fun of me and say I was like a dog because I enjoyed having my head massaged. My body still this morning feels relaxed, for the most part. I love getting pampered and could totally see myself going to a spa every month, if the budget allowed for it. Anyways, here's my plug- If you are pregnant, go get a massage, you'll feel fabulous. If you aren't pregnant, go get a massage, you'll feel fabulous. I am planning on going back after I have this baby, just so I know what it's like to get a massage and not be pregnant. There was a lady there last night that had just gotten done with a massage and was talking about how great the deep tissue massage is and I was like, I could go for that now, but I have to get the mommy to be massage. Someday...someday...another massage will be in my future.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
Tomorrow should be a much better day. One of my good friends is having a baby shower for me. I am really excited about it.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Monday, March 09, 2009
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Last night for dinner I made a super yummy soup. I called my sister to see if she wanted to come over and eat with me, since Matt was at school. She was here super fast because she was so excited about my soup.
Chicken, Black Bean and Spinach Enchilada soup
2t. olive oil
1-2 (or more) boneless, skinless chicken breasts chopped really small
1/2 onion chopped
2 c. low sodium chicken broth
1 1/2 c. skim milk
1 can low fat low sodium cream of chicken soup
10 oz chopped, fresh spinach
1 can black beans, drained
1 can kidney beans, drained
1 1/2 t. chili powder
1 1/2 t. cumin
handful frozen corn
2-3 chopped tomatoes
1/4 c shredded low fat cheese
Saute chicken in oil 6-7 minutes. Add onion and cook 1-2 more minutes. Stir in remaining ingredients. Bring to a boil and cook over low heat for 10 minutes, or until spinach is done. Good with shredded cheese on top and tortilla chips.
This recipe came from my friend Lynelle.
So Matt mentioned a few weeks ago that he wanted to get a Wii Fit. His parents got him the Wii for Christmas, so I figured we could get the fit to go with it. As a side note: if you're pregnant and your balance is quite off, like mine, then don't attempt the fit. It is fun, its fun to watch, but not when you are front heavy. Ally really enjoys doing the fit with Matt. She tells him what she wants to do and that she will watch him first, then its her turn. Other than the video of her running, when she is standing on the balance board, she is just standing there, she doesn't quite get that you have to move your body around (put more weight on certain spots of your feet). Matt sits behind her and pushes on it, so she thinks she is moving.